have you ever sat at your desk and felt the emptyness? not the air - but the actual lacking of real definite space, feeling like its pulling all your skin outwards?

yeah.

had to open my mouth.

it's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Self serving post #325

I've been good for about a month now. I've had my lapses, they've all been extremely minor and there's no permanent evidence of them occuring in the first place. Almost completely fucked it all up today, but I held off. So that's good. Go me!

And on a completely unrelated note...just drop me a line, o multitude of readers. Because I said so. And I asked nicely. Please?

as we cruised across the Canadian border
you reached into your handbag, and pulled out a micro-cassette recorder.
you started quoting Tolstoy into the machine,
i had no idea what you meant.
i guess i'm supposed to figure these things out,
or maybe it should be self evident.
but i've gone feral,
and i don't know the language anymore.
we're headed deep into the forest, i've got the pedal to the floor.
the engine shudders, like a dying man, when you reach out to grab my hand,
and you can bring out all your weapons,
you can't make me go to war.

long winding Canadian highways,
innumerable evergreens.
weather forecast on the AM radio
said we'll be expecting highs in the low teens
when i mouth my silent curses at you,
you can see my breath.
i hope the stars don't even come out tonight.
i hope we both freeze to death.
look at the person i've turned into, tell me,
how do you like him now?
no standards of any kind, no creeds to disavow
i am right here where you want me
do what you brought me out here for.
you can arm me to the teeth.
you can't make me go to war.

The Mountain Goats - Family Happiness

The lyrics will continue until I say so, dammit!

In the meantime, I'm studying for my genetics test tomorrow. Wohoo!

i could almost hear the rhythm section
kick in as the sun began to blaze.
i saw you walk across the plaza,
figured I'd just play it like it lays.
yeah yeah yeah.

i think i'm gonna be real sick again.
i think it's gonna happen real soon.
and i know i can't afford another night here in this place,
with its sixteenth floor view of the ocean and the dunes
and it's gonna be, just you and me today,
waiting for the other shoe to drop in Tampa Bay.


i can hear the roar of the crowd
in the stadium a couple of blocks away.
it's the kind of thing that used to get me all worked up,
but i don't want to talk about it now, ok, ok? ok.

i just want to get this whole thing over with.
i don't want to deal with it anymore.
i hear the cogs all slipping at the same time,
and then i see you walk i through the door.
and it's gonna be, just you and me today,
waiting for the other shoe to drop in Tampa Bay.

The Mountain Goats - Alphonse Mambo

Swing low, sweet jewel-encrusted chariot...

First things first: two more cds.
Mountain Goats - Coroner's Gambit. I ordered this about amonth ago, it finally came in...and it's 1526 times better than I expected...and I had high expectations.
Flogging Molly - Drunken Lullabies. Celtic punk type stuff? Oh yeah. Damn good.
...damn cd store on campus is costing me a fortune.

Anyway, exams next week...should be fun, considering pretty much everything is riding on them I don't want to think about it. Grades aren't exactly stellar at this point.

I have done nothing productive at all lately. I've been horribly, horribly bad. I'll get better. I have to, or I'm royally fucked.

Not really much going on...(see? proof I haven't been productive).

I'm off to bed. More to come later.

Oh, and if you were wondering, I STILL am planning on launching my comic...I've got photoshop now so I can crop my photos. Now the only thing stopping me is my html ignorance. That hasn't stopped me from writing several more, though. So keep an eye out. It'll get done. I swear.

Pre-big post: Today should be a good day....I finally get me Mountain Goats - Coroner's Gambit CD! Wohoo! I'll be back later for more postage....and I ain't talking 'bout stamps!

...unless my post has to deal with stamps.

Which it won't. That's a promise.

tomorrow. i swear. in no mood for this.

::boot::

Look lively!

Update later today / tonight.

True.

Ahem. Yes. Here's the post, as promised.

What have you been up to, Brandon?

Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Oh, the laziness that has eminated from my apartment is astounding.

Let's start with Easter...I went home for Easter Saturday, and stayed at home for brunch Sunday with the family. It was nice, but nothing really noteworthy occured. After that, back up to UCF I went. Last night, I went to the Tenacious D concert. For those who don't know, Jack Black (of High Fidelity fame) is half the band. It was him and the other guy, noth with acoustic guitars in the House of Blues in Orlando. It was fantastic. They played for about 2 hours.

Several new CDs in my cd player that should be mentioned:
South - From Here On In - Excellent, excellent band, reminiscent of Coldplay.
...And You Will Know Us By The Trail of Dead - Source Tags and Codes - I don't know how to describe it really...but one of the best, most emotionally impactful CDs I own. Kind of like punk....but that doesn't do it justice. Just listen to a track off of it...pick a track, at random, they're all good.

more to come later, for now I'm off. Adios.

big update tomorrow. too tired to post now. I'll get this thing back up and running if it kills me. Maybe a new layout too. yeah.