Dusting this off for a small bit of pacing.

Things happen. And now I'm in the spot you were in 3 years ago.

And everything is clear in how it works and how it can feel innocent and needed at the time.

Retroactively apologizing for you, maybe not.

Maybe this is how things are.

Maybe I need to make personal life less concrete, and embrace things and maybe stop trying to make everyone else happy and protect everyone and just be for myself.

I don't regret the decision.

Maybe I will later.

But for now, it helped me breathe.