Its 3:26am, and I'm debating. Rationalizing. Always am, even with unimportant crap. I know this is important, but my decision will never be known to anyone, hell, the situation will in all likelihood never be known fully, maybe just inferred, so what the fuck difference does it make, really? Why even bother to decide at all, why not just act? What's holding me back? Some tattered rag of self-respect binding my hands? Its 3:46 now, debate partially lost (or won, depending on who's side you take; mine or mine). Its 3:58, and I shouldn't be listening to music, period. Its 4:14. I'm done. I forfiet. I'm going to bed.