Tired - why does thinking about activism wear me out? Perhaps it makes me feel like I've wasted so much and everything I do is pointless. But I know that's not true. I've seen my occassional good deeds make a radical difference in someone's day (and that has to ripple out somewhere. no thing is one thing. a hurricane in the atlantic makes a butterfly fall off a twig in sri lanka)...but still I question motivation. Trying to put people into my debt so they owe me and now I control a piece of them? Trying not to wrap everyone I know up in string. Oh well. Too much thinking and I'm hungry. I might write more on this later. How do I manage to keep forgetting how much writing helps?